Last saturday i turned twenty-two, i really can not believe it. I mean, yesterday i just left kindergarden, i think you know what i am trying to say. Time flies so fast and you learn to appreciate every moment, every single thing that happens, no matter whether it is bad or good. You value things more and learn and grow and just live. You just enjoy more often and grow older and wiser. At least i can say that about myself. I learned so much about myself during the last months/weeks and it feels so good. I had a fabulous birthday weekend with some amazing things happening, but i might tell you about that at some point. All i can say is that i am really happy lately. I went to my friends house and we were like 13 people celebrating my birthday. They sang for me at midnight and i brought some cake along. It was a crazy night, but i would not have missed this one. By far one of the best birthdays of my life. Here are some of the presents i got and the dress i wore. I am curvy and i feel pretty, i will get a better picture of me in that dress soon.
I have been thinking a long time about writing again, i know i always said i will be back soon, but never showed up. Here i am, this time for sure! I am missing taking pictures and writing more than anything. There have been a lot of life changes lately and i feel like sharing with people, because i know that some actually care. I will also share recipes, lifestyle things, travel pictures and experiences.
Here is a little insight of the main things that have been happening/bothering me:
moved back from Berlin to my beautiful hometown Kiel
sharing a room with my 16 years old brother
flat hunting is exhausting
money is shit
looking for a job not that easy
started to be vegetarian (vegan from october on) - you will read about this soon
Of course i am glad to be back home, i got a beautiful friends here and i am excited for the next three years of school. I love my class, my teachers, the atmosphere and i actually enjoy studying. I never expected me saying that i missed school, but i did for some reason. As much as i love my mother and brother it is annoying to live with them. Once you have been out of your nest, you don't want to fly back. I don't have a room for myself, but i need some privacy. I can not wait to find a flat, sign a contract and move in. Not just all the ideas for decorating my flat, but also coming home and having nothing but myself makes me happy. Hopefully i will have moved out by November or mid October!
These aren't all bad things or sad things, it is just what has been on my mind and writing it down makes me feel less worried. There are also so many things to be happy about, i will talk about that tomorrow. IT'S FALL/AUTUMN! I am also working on a new layout, let's say i am actually back to what i am good at. Oh and about the title, it basically means "let go" - it's a song from one of my favorite artists of all time:
this is how i actually feel: my mind is full of things, too many things actually